Thursday, May 6, 2010

Long time no bloggy...time to tell the truth

I know that it has been an incredibly long time since I have posted anything.  So, in honor of To Tell the Truth Thursdays, I thought that I would come back and tell you why.  Honestly.

I have been having a little bit of a bloggy identity crisis I guess.  I am not sure that this blog is what I want it to be.  I am not sure how to get it to where I want it to be.  I have been feeling like my random rantings aren't all that important to anyone but myself.  I have also really been less than inspired to write anything at all. 

I have been feeling a little less than supported in certain ideas that I have had and I think that has lead me to have general blah feelings about most of the ideas running through my head.  Also, I have been spending a fair amount of time on the internet doing research for the book I want to write as well as a few other ideas I have had.  One of which is a straw bale garden.  Also some time way too much time on that horribly addictive website that we all love to hate known as Facebook!

So, I know that this is a short list, but in general I have been feeling blah about the blog.  I have been feeling blah about myself and the worth of my ideas.  I have just been feeling blah. 

And through all of this blah feeling, I miss it.  I miss getting comments from people I don't know or from the bloggers like Fidget, Lori, momma shenanigans, and Tanis (among others) that I have grown to love through their own shared stories.  Even if they could really care less about why I have been gone. 

I ran across a quote on Facebook and I really liked it.  It kind of touched me and I want to really try to live by it.  "Don't worry about who you know, make yourself worth knowing."


  1. Sorry you're feeling so bad about things. Putting yourself out there can make you really vulnerable particularly if you want the validation of other folks. And for many of us that's really important. I freely admit I'm into the stats and opinions of others on what I write. Shortly after I started this whole blogging thing (about 2 months ago) I wrote a post about blogging being the ultimate in narcistic behavior. It's all about us. But that's the really important thing--it really doesn't matter what others think about your blog--or even comment on--it's about YOU. Just you. So, if you're not happy with the way it's going because it's not making YOU feel good--then tweaking things a bit is a good thing. But if you just feel bad because no one else has given the thumbs up--well kiddo--just remember that's just ok. You don't need someone else to let you know that your ponderings are worth contemplating. They are. And just like this thing called parenting has it's ups and downs so does this blogging thing. you know --- it's a lot like having a baby. you put so much into it--you feel like you own it--but to really "own it" you gotta let it go and get out there! good luck as you work through all this. stumbled on you via SITS btw.

  2. Well, I for one have missed your blog a lot! I check it every single day and was hoping you would start again, but I didn't want to pressure you. (I know it probably doesn't count as much because I'm the m-i-l and partial, but I love reading your blog. So, I hope you stick with it.....and your gardening and all the other things you want to do!

  3. Have you looked at the mess that is my blog.. LOL There is so much I want to do but my kids are more important than all I want it to be right now... Once both are in school I will do more but for now I ramble.. You want to write a book you need to ramble.. An author friend of mine once said "If you want to be a great writer you have to practice"... So if nothing else look at your random rambling on your blog as practice for the book you want to write... Your blog shouldn't be work to you... I already posted in a different comment but I'm glad you are back to posting, even if only a little... (hugs)

  4. I've missed you Momma Shenanigans! I really have. :)