I stayed up until 2:30a.m. this morning just thinking about how far I have let myself go. The whole thing started with trying to figure out what I could do to help myself start getting into better shape. I looked up on YouTube a bunch of videos for the 30 Day Shred and the P90 workout. What I found was TONS of before and after videos. It amazed me at how well some people had done and then it got me thinking about whether it really would work for me or not. It got me thinking about whether I could actually do it or not. It just got me thinking about what I wanted to do about myself. I mean, my 19 month old daughter lifts up my shirt, pokes my belly, and then laughs when it jiggles. It didn't bother me when I didn't admit it to anyone. In talking with the huz yesterday, it came up and I just wanted to cry. I didn't know it effected me that much. So, last night/this morning wasn't fun or pretty. It was me in full blown self loathing. A little less than a good night's sleep helped me come to a decision I am hoping will change my life.
So, I sent out a tweet and a status on facebook asking if anyone knew what would be better to do, the P90 system or the 30 Day Shred. Then, low and behold, my step mother in law said that she actually had the 30 day shred DVD. So, right then and there the decision was made. Why not try the one that I don't have to buy? I had watched several snippets of both systems on-line and still didn't know if I could really do it or not. The more I thought about it, the more I decided that this was it. This needed to be it. Around 2PM I made the huz go over and pick it up because I knew that if I didn't decide to start now, it wouldn't happen. So, today was officially day 1......
And today is the day that I realized that Jillian Michaels and her workout might kill me rather than make me thin. OMG!! I was jelly legged 1/3 of the way through the 20 minutes. I knew that I was out of shape, but good lord! I had to stop several times throughout the video, but I was determined to at least finish. Which, I did. One of the main problems I had was that my feet started cramping when I had my shoes on. Once I took them off, they gradually got better. I am not really sure why they do that, though I have a feeling that it is simply my weight. I also had an issue with the fact that when I jumped up and down my flab was very distracting. I'm a big girl and the belly is not a fun thing when jumping.
One of the other issues I had is that I kept moving to one side or the other when doing jumping jacks. If we had a large space for me to do this in, this wouldn't be a problem. However, I have almost no space. I kept running into the couch, worrying about hitting the ceiling fan with my hands, and running into the hubby who was sitting in the chair behind me. I was very nervous doing this in front of him, but the baby needed to be fed and I needed to start right then and there, so he got the full view. Once I was done with the workout, I was so shaky and jelly armed/legged that I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get Ember out of her crib after nap time. Luckily she woke up before the huz had to leave for his evening job.
I did take the day 1 pictures (which are NOT going to be posted yet - I'm working up to it, just give me time) and weighed myself. We are also getting ready to do my measurements. I am truly hoping that this is going help. I'm not sure whether it will or not since I am not sure how to change my diet completely. So, we will see. I will check in tomorrow to let you know how I feel. Probably VERY sore. I can already feel myself starting to tighten up.
As far as today goes, I lived. There's always tomorrow. :)