Disappointing

I measured myself last night with the huz's help and was thoroughly disappointed.  I was even more disappointed by my weight this a.m.  I half expected to see no change at all, but what I saw was disheartening.  All of my numbers went up save 1 which could have been a simple error in measurement when we started.  Even my weight went up 2.9 pounds.  This may not seem like a big deal, but to me it is.  It makes me think that I am doing something very wrong.  A lot of people will say "Well, muscle weighs more than fat."  Well, those people don't understand that I am a big enough girl that even if I am gaining muscle, I should be losing weight.  It made me want to stop, but thanks to a dear friend of mine who I wish I got to see more, I didn't.  She gave me a few pointers on what to eat and just some encouragement which I needed after seeing such disappointing numbers. 

So, I stuck with it and did day 8.  I feel a little bit like I am becoming a failure only after just a week because I have to stop more now than I did when I first started.  Shouldn't I be getting better and having more and more endurance?  Most of it is because I am getting this horrid cramp on the outside of my shins/ankles right above the knobby bone.  It is a killer!  For those of you that need a visual:   

I used to get it right when I started skating again.  If I didn't stop and try to work it out, it would eventually pull all the way up my leg to my knee.  It's frustrating to say the least.  So, I think that if I don't find a good pair of shoes soon, I might have to make the 30 day Shred into something that is going to last a little longer.  We will see.  For now I am going to do my best to stick with it.